sleepyhollowdreaming

2003-11-20T18:31:00.000-08:00

2003-11-09T12:54:00.000-08:00

http://sakura.100megs6.com/MMBlackBible/fullimage/bbMana11.jpg

I just found that amusing. I hadn't seen it before. It's Mana in a pair of pants.

2003-10-27T14:06:00.000-08:00

Okay so being sick pretty much sucks.

I've recovered from my mental breakdown. I suppose I had it coming, that stress had been building up for a good time. I don't feel much better, but I don't have the need to kill anybody right now.

I wrote this last night when I was crying:

Have you ever found yourself wondering about the things that normally you wouldn’t dare even think about it? Have you found that once they worm their way into your mind that no matter what you do you just can’t get them out? How they seem to sit and laugh at you as you sit in vain trying to think of something else. Something happier. Have you ever found yourself wondering if you’re really alone? If you really exist? If you’re really sane?
Now that I’ve brought it up, is it making its way through your thoughts?
Forgive me if I have troubled you. It was not my intent. Or maybe it was? I suppose we’ll never really know what my intent was. I believe it was to make you think. What is it you think of when you’re alone? What do you dream of? Are your dreams all nightmares?
Sometimes life can be a nightmare.

Weird innit?

I'm happy that people like this layout fine. He is seikushi for a poof. ^.^

That's all for now I guess.

~AJ

2003-10-26T15:47:00.000-08:00

That entire bottle of motrin is looking really good right now.

2003-10-26T14:59:00.000-08:00

HATE
ANGST
DEATH

I swear you will be the cause of my insanity!!!

2003-10-21T18:30:00.000-07:00

James Marsters, who plays the not-all-physically-there vampire on The
WB series, easily won Zap2it's third annual Showdown of the Network
Stars over his "Angel" co-star, David Boreanaz. He joins past winners
Gillian Anderson ("The X-Files," 2001) and Jennifer Garner ("Alias,"
2002) as the person anointed the top star in the TV universe.
The final tally wasn't close. Marsters received close to 22,500 votes
to about 4,300 for Boreanaz.

Spike Spike he's our man, if he can't do it, no one can!

That's it, beat Peaches arse boy!

2003-10-20T13:38:00.000-07:00

So I'm back in my effort to write more. Go me. I just noticed my commenting system is like completely gone. Oops. I'll have to find another one I guess. I'll try to get something up.

I'm also thinking of moving this little outfit to farf.com. I dunno if I can figure out the B2 stuff or not, but I'll try. What else can you ask? I think tonight though I'm gonna try and mess with the message board stuff. See if I can't make Absolute Corruption look right.

Later

2003-10-19T18:38:00.000-07:00

It's been a while again. Just haven't really felt like updating lately. Been to busy doing other stuff. Wow the last time I wrote in here was when I just started writing It's Days Like These. That fic is done now. Go me. It's 6 chapters long.

Uhh I went to Six Flags. Got a gun.
Came home. Made a bunch of layouts.
Worked on some fics.
Did a new layout for this baby. Commemorate me acutally watching Angel.

Uhh yeah. I promise a better update later. I have things to do at the moment.

2003-09-15T17:26:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've said anything of meaning. There isn't much to say really.

After all is said and done, I'm not trying out for All State. It's not that I haven't practiced for it, it's just that I can't do it. I thought I would be able to handle it, but I can't. I'd like to think I'm a better player for it in the end, but that's how the cookie crumbles I suppose.

I haven't been getting much feed back on my fics lately. Poor defenseless me. I just typed up the begining of one that I've been working on for the past few days and posted it in the mls. It's a humor fic so I think it should go over pretty well.

Made another MV. It's huge though so I'm not putting it on farf.com for the moment. And it's not all that great anyhow. So yeah.

Guess that's about it for the moment. Love you all.

2003-09-08T18:38:00.000-07:00

A Quote from Demon: The Fallen.

"It's blasphemy to say God's a woman with a fat ass but saying She's a ban with a snowy beard and sandals is reverent? Look, God is God-- almighty, infinite, immoral and incomprehensible. God doesn't need your reverence. Saying mean things about the Almighty isn't going to hurt God,..."

I just found that amusing.

2003-09-07T08:08:00.000-07:00

Okay so it's been a while. How is everyone?

So of the updatedness. I'm right happy at the moment. I made my first music video! It was a learning experience. Codecs make the difference my friends. Anyway the vid is some clips from the Buffy episode Doppelganger (Willow in leather. Yum) to When You're Good To Mama from Chicago. You can watch it HERE

I also completely uploaded Absolute Corruption last night. Go me. Visit and be merry and whatnot. SUBMIT TO ME! Teehee. Double meaning.

Vanilla Pepsi is of the good. Just thought I'd mention that before I'm off to....uhhh maybe make a new blog layout.

2003-08-29T18:23:00.000-07:00

And now to get this out of my system.

BLOODY FUCKING HELL WHY IN ALL THINGS GOOD AND EVIL?

I feel like killing. I feel violent. I want to hurt something. I want to kill. I want blood. I want it to run. I want to scar, I want to burn. Anything to get rid of this anger.

Why me?

Why you?

Apology not accepted.

2003-08-24T15:49:00.000-07:00

Butterflies.

Pineapples.

Gyspies.

Funny dreams. Pretty colors that sing in the sunshine. Big hat that sits in the foyer with my long lost peanut butter elephant. Orange brushes are eating all of the daisys.

Standing on the green speaker makes me tired.

My fault. I'm sorry.

Books prettily fly through the underwater peaches of my soul causing me to flirt with the upside-down cup that is sitting on my forehead and whispering dirty things into my telephone cord.

The polish won't stay in the same toilet as the floppy disk because flowers wilt at the sight of the calander goat. The bag says that my bowl has been broken by the fiend that runs through the chained fields.

2003-08-24T15:23:00.000-07:00

Friendship is highly overrated.

We go though so many "friends" in our lives.

Everything always ends in pain.

Why does the human always strive for companionship, knowing that in the long run everything always ends in pain?

What is it about the human condition that makes us punish ourselves over and over?

Why is it that the ones we care about the most always seem to hurt us the most?

What is the point?

Okay enough. I don't know the point, and I can't answer any of that. Don't know why I even wrote it. I get stupid and depressed. So what if I am now in the belief that maybe the only real good friendship I ever had will never repair itself due to my own flaws and nature? That's life. And I'll rebound just like everyone else and do it all over again.

2003-08-18T16:58:00.000-07:00

I've painted my bloody nails. Makes me feel all feminine. My left hand is blue and my right is green. Pretty tame if you ask me. I really like the two colors. They're all dark and stuffs.

I'm feeling rather accomplished cause for the most part Farf.com is finished. I mean, other than the shrines and stuff it's completely done. The coolness of it is blowing my mind. I can actually start updating instead of just fixing. And working on the shrines. So go me!

School sucks. But that's alright. I've said that quite often lately. Oh and B-chan this is Colin Firth. Oh yeah.

Get better soon Dani-chan!!! I WUV YOU!!!

Now I'm off to brood a bit. Later.

2003-08-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

I take my comment about Colin Firth about not being hot back. He looks damn good. Wet. He's got that broody look to him.

Anyway. I got all my wisdom teeth cut out on Friday. It sucks royally. I never want to be in that much damn unneeded pain again.

I'm going to go now. Pride and Predjudice is on. And it pleases me greatly, thoughbeit increadibly long. Long enough for me to start speaking in the Victorian manner.
Farewell.

2003-08-09T17:11:00.000-07:00

Wheee I just saw PotC again. Yay. And we've finally figured out why I make a layout after I see the movie each time.

Lady Alanna Jade: *saw pirates again*
Usilion: woooooo
Lady Alanna Jade: *dies happy*
Lady Alanna Jade: What is it about PotC that
makes me want to make layouts?
Usilion: I have no idea...
Lady Alanna Jade: I think it's because making a layout gives me an excuse to stare at Jack for 3 hours.
Usilion: lmao yes!

See? ^.^

I also bought a couple of manga today. So mucho on the happiness factor here. And I'm eating PIEEEEEEEE. YUM!

....I almost typed Rum instead of Yum. Oops. Three times. Double oops. Anyway. I'm gonna go eat my Sheperd's Pie. Because it is good. And I haven't eaten lately. And I am hungry. Oh yeah.

2003-08-08T17:17:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've last posted. Find it in your hearts to forgive me. It is now the first weekend of the school-year, and I am very pleased that it is. It's only been three days, and I'm ready for the year to be over. I want out of school.

Anyway. I don't think I have any good writing classes in school, but I'm definately not on block seeing as I've written two chapters of The Diary of William Hart in the past couple of weeks. It might just be the subject matter of what I'm writing. Yeah. Maybe.

As you can see, I really don't have much to write about. Hence the lack of posting. Oh yeah. GHETTO HIGH GOT A NEW BARI! Teehee. That pleases me to no end. It's silver though so it shows fingerprints really easily.

Okay. I'm not in the babbling mood so I'm just gonna shut up now. Later.

2003-08-01T23:07:00.000-07:00

You are Gambit!

You are a fierce fighter and a good friend to have.
Your preference for solitude and your
attractiveness make you very intriguing to
those you meet. Unfortunately, close
relationships are few and far between for you
because you often have trouble opening up to
others.

Which X-Men character are you most like?
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2003-08-01T23:04:00.000-07:00

I'm bored. It's quiz time. Prepare for a really fucking long load time.

You're pretty good!!! Not exactly obsessed, but
this movie's definately in your top 10!

How Obsessed With Pirates of the Caribbean Are You?
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ur "welcome to the caribbean love!" ur
one of jacks many quotes. ur a care free
pirate......well i guess ur not a pirate but if
u were on u would b care free. u also like rum
and wear eyeliner.

which quote from Pirates of the Caribbean r u? w/images
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Saxophone

Who would you be in a marching band?
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^ I got this by saying I liked sex and I stare off into the distance looking stoned.

Aye Mate your Jack Sparrow, savy? You are fun to be
with and your word can always be trusted even
though it may not seem like it sometimes. You
Don't need romance because all you want is a
ship and crew to sail, steal, and plunder!

Which Pirates of the Carribean Character Are you?
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Hee! You are Jack's "You have to find
yourself a girl, mate ... you're not a eunuch,
are you?" speech. You're quite a bit sex-
crazed, and you assume that everyone else is as
horny as you are. Get it on as soon as
possible so that you can join the rest of us on
Planet Earth ... I'm sure you'll have a good
time doing so.

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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The Jackal

What sign of the Black Zodiac are you?
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2003-07-31T23:01:00.000-07:00

My new solitare high score: 9004
Game won in: 84 seconds.

Ha. Beat that you pansys.

2003-07-29T23:18:00.000-07:00

Your inner voice is Gackt getting bad sex..

Your inner voice is bored. So very bored. So bored that it just wants it's lover to orgasm and get it over with so he can sleep. It's possibly depressed as well if he's fucking Mana. Basically it sounds like..

"Er. Ah. Oo.. yeah. Mm. ..Did you come yet? ..No? ::Le sigh.::"
test made by jyin

from B-chan and Taku's

2003-07-29T11:40:00.000-07:00

Nobody really needs to know this, and since I only have it confirmed that one person really reads this. I just kinda felt like sharing this with the world.

I just had the most powerful orgasm I've ever had.

You may now return to your lives.

2003-07-27T21:17:00.000-07:00

Well. Band Camp starts tomorrow. A big yay there. No really. Hear the great river sarcasm running through the middle of that sentance. Hear it run through the entire post that you may or may not be about to read.

I really need to stop this feeling bloody sorry for myself thing. It's selfish. I hate thinking about myself but it's all I seem to do sometimes. Damn human nature. All I do is whine. And complain. And bitch. And dump my problems on other people. I hate the fact I do it.

And I'm doing it even now, because people read what I write or so I am told. Maybe if I don't make a big deal about this being where I'm acutally writing stuff now, people won't find this abyss of angst and I'll feel a tad better about spilling my damn selfishness into this.

I really don't know why I'm in this funk. Well, let me take it back. I do know, but I'm not putting it in here. There is always the off chance someone actually knows I moved.

Anyway. How is everyone else out there? Forgive me that I completely lack people skills and don't know how keep a conversation giong. Apparently living in West Virginia will help me with that, but I am highly apprihensive.

And I really don't think my best friend likes me all that much anymore. I'm telling you strong emotions really fuck things up. And I wasn't supposed to type that, but I lack the caring to go back and erase it. So please ignore my selfish and maybe hurtful words. I don't really mean them anyway.

Of course I don't really mean anything I say. I'm selfish and have a major trust issue. Mulder had it right man. Trust no one.

My legs are sunburnt and they hurt like hell. Not that that means anything at all.

And don't you just love this layout? I love the face he's making KAWAIIIIIIIII. Mwrr I could just sit here and stare at the hotness that is Johnny Depp and the cuteness that is Jack Sparrow.

I need a life.

And some friends.

Do you want to be my friend?

I'm an egotistical bitch sometimes but I try not to be. Really I do. And I'm kinda squishy which makes for nice snuggling. I like to snuggle. Too damn insecure to take the initive to do it with anyone though.

I think this post is long enough now. Goodnight.

2003-07-26T22:30:00.000-07:00

Well. I think I've decided that I kinda like this URL better than the other one. Stupid I know, but this is where I'll be updating from now on so deal with it.

I like this layout.